Teresa

Five Cent Stand...and all i have to say, is that i'm continuously amazed by thier talent and thier love. Seth and Amber are great people and so fun to work with. I love preforming with/for them. Seth put this together and it is absolutely beautiful. The song is called "Teresa" off of thier Bitter Kiss album. The pure beauty of the song and who it stands for is so incredibly touching. I hope you, my readers, enjoy this just as much as I do.

-Reijn

Hold em' Horses

i am so tired. Horseback riding wore me out...and trying to get a 17 year old gelding who hasn't been ridden in two years to listen to a strong headed girl who hasn't ridden in 4 years was an adventure to say the least. But fun. *nods* I'm exausted. bed for me.

-Reijn

Ramen, Beer and movies

Yes, i'm depressed and this is how i'm fighting it: Japanese Ramen, German Beer, and American child cartoons. Jess, eat your heart out...scaper the penguin on DVD! I'll give you my VHS if you want it. So now i'm going to go wallow in my depression and make it worse by drinking. *nods* Its all good. I'm ok, i promise you.




-Reijn

Rocket Man

well...here is a good blog entry finally.

driving back to lubbock from my two week break away from this horrid town, we got pulled over by a Sheriff, i think. Either way, i was going 75 in a 70 mph zone and i got pulled over...quite stupid. Well, he asked me to get out of the car and talk to me infront of the cop car. I did, he asked if i had ever gotten in trouble before and i answered that i had not. He asked Derek several questions as well, "are there any knives, guns or drugs in the car?" Of course he answered no. The cop asked me if either one of us smoked and i answered no, and he said that the reason why he asked because usually when he pulls over people on 20/82 he can sometimes smell pot on people. I responded, "Well, i'm glad that you ask that but it doesn't change the fact that we were not smoking nor do smoke." He also asked me where our destination was several times and i just repeated myself as, "we are traveling from Austin to Lubbock, sir." He also asked me if we went to Tech and i answered, "yes sir." "What are you studying?" Me: "English and art" Cop: "yeah, if i was in college that's what i would do too, english. (i just nodded in acknowledgement.) I see that your hands are shaking." Me: "Well, this is not a normal occurance for me." Cop: "I don't bite." Me: "i'm sure you don't sir." He laughed and let us off with a warning and just said to slow down. Once i got back in the car Derek started cussing about Texas' Cops. I shrugged. We drove off and i drove the exact speed limit all the way back to lubbock. We were driving a black Caddie so we suspect that it was profiling of a "drug car". We really weren't speeding that much and he really couldn't nail us for anything illegal so he let us go with a warning. Derek also thanked me for being a cute girl. I again shrugged.

Well, i have organized everything in my appartment.









my music corner. I have a piano, snare drum, eletcric guitar and amp, and my flute, penny whistle and wooden recorder.
my trusty computer get-up.

Well, there ya' go...some picts of my appartment!

I worked today. And i did absolutely nothing but pretty much read a book about horses. Exciting. But that's ok. At least i'll be payed and i'll be able to pay rent, since my parents aren't helping with that little detail.

there was more that i wanted to say but i can't remember mostly because it took me so long to get these pictures working for me. *shrugs* Its all good. Elton John is playing on Bravo right now so i'm going to watch that and relax. *nods* ttyl!

-Reijn

A Beautiful Thing

ok...don't call me a sap but you have to understand the back story to this:

I've known Andrew for almost two years now. And when i first met him he was not a Christian and he was worshiping the Egyptian Goddess Baast. I won't lie, it weirded me out alittle bit but i was a different person back then. I continued to talk to him and tell him my opinionated outlook on life, which is Christ-based. A year and a half later, after meeting Andrew, he found Christ again...through prayer and many many AIM conversations. It was a beautiful and heartaching thing. Either way, he wrote this in his blog just a while ago...and i almost cried it was so beautiful...so i post it here to share with my readers:

Let me tell you a story ... One night I was feeling horrible, I was sweating profusely and very hot but the temperature on the thermostat was 74. So I crawled up into my bed, turned on my fan as high as it would go and passed out. I remember laying there for a few moments drifting in and out of wake and sleep untill everything was black. I remember hearing the sound of the wind passing quickly and the smell of a warm summer, I fealt the earth moving underneath me and my bed fealt like a leather couch. I sat up and blinked rubbing the sleep and blurr from my eyes , as I looked around I realized I was riding in the back of an old 1951 Chevy drop top on shindler drive, it was cherry red and had chrome trim and an off white leather interior. In disbeleif I looked around even pinched myself and it hurt, I looked up to the person who was driving I never did see his face but his voice was clear in my mind even with the passing wind whisteling in my ears. He said to me "Andrew why dont you trust me" ... I responded in astonishment "what do you mean...do I know you?" ... the man answered "Yes my son...you do know me, I have known you even before you were born" ... I fealt my heart jump in my chest and skip a beat. I didnt need to ask again who he was from that point ... I protested "well...where were you when I had a gun in my face, where were you when my ex fiance left me, where were you when I asked you to spare my grandfather from cancer, where were you?! Ive done nothing but cry my entire life because of pain others have caused me, why didnt you stop that?"...he sighed heavily and hung his head a lil a he continued to drive ... "Have faith and you will be happy, trust me and you will know love, confide in me and you receive peace ..." his words paused and echoed in my mind and I soon fealt a wave a warmth cross over me and I fealt at peace with myself, like nothing could harm me and then I awoke soaked in sweat and I no longer fealt ill.

-Reijn

Lubbock How Do I Hate Thee

well i'm back in lubbock and i've just finished unboxing and organizing my appartment. I'll post pictures later. *nods* Its really cool. *sighs* i'm finally done and moved in and happy! *nods* i'm broke completely but that's ok...i have an appartment and i'm going to start working and hopefully be able to pay rent before the end of the month...*crosses fingers* it will be tight, but i'll talk to my boss and work it all out soon enough. *nods* well, i'm done for now, just telling my readers that i am alive and my computer is hooked up! *nods*

-Reijn

PS: i have stories to tell, cops and weather and all...*nods*

Austin in View

i'm stayin in austin an extra day. Derek's parents wanted him to stay so we both made phonecallse and rescheduled things and are managing to stay for one more day. So austin for one more day....*nods* i think we are just going to chill and relax before we head off. *nods* ttyl.

oh and i saw tyler yesterday...he has a rediculous hair cut, but its funny. I finally got to meet JB and i replaced my celtic ring b/c i had totally lost the other one in the move from the dorms to the appartments. *nods* okies for real: ttyl!

-Reijn

Austin City Cars

i'm in austin...until thursday, and got into a wreck...i'm pretty shooken up but we are ok. Corey and i were in the car but we are ok...the cars really aren't. It wasn't even our fault but its ok. *sighs* i'm tired and i really don't feel like myself anymore. *shrugs* ttyl

-Reijn

Music Music Music!!!

wow, yeah so sunday morning worshiped sucked but SNL (Sunday Night Live) rocked...completely! I had so many solos and i improvised so nicely! Ah, it was almost orgasmatic! And playing Five Cent Stand's Nience Creed...yeah that totally rocked. it was so nice to play with a real group of musicians again...i haven't done that in a long time. (now don't get me wrong, Four and a Half Crusade has real musicians, we just don't have our musical act to gether yet...the worship team at church does...along with several professionally payed musicians there.) Ah, it was so much fun...solos and improvising made me happy! *nods*

-Reijn

Another day in SL

Well, i have been productive AND lazy. Its been nice. I went around town yesterday and shopped with my mom. We got stuff that i desperately needed like sheets and belts. I met up with my dear friend sara in the morning and had breakfast. IT was nice because we hadn't talked in a long time...then i met up with another dear friend, Natalie and we went to Retrospective together. And of course, John St.Michael stole the show. His work with prisma colors are photo realistic. I am so glad that i graduated when i did so i wouldn't have to compete against him. Eitherwho, when 10:00 rolled around i was exausted. So i actually went to bed at 10:30! That is such a first for me.

So now i'm being dragged out for a mother's day lunchen for my grandmother and friends. *sighs* Then i'll probally call some friends and get together. Oh, there is a party tonight...i may make an appearance. Ah college is over and now high school friend obligations. *laughs* Sara told me the other day that she missed high school. I was thinking, "i don't." I loved high school but i am glad that i'm passed the drama and the "horrible" things that happen to a person. I laugh at them all now. I'm glad that i've moved out and away. Its nice.

-Reijn

The Letter P

well, i'm in bubble SL right now. And oddly enough, i'm incredibly anti social! yeah, i'm serious...strange isn't it. I've been invited to go out and what not but all i really want to do is be lazy and sleep. *shrugs* interesting i know.

We drove down to Austin on Wednesday...actually, i drove and Derek rode, and we raced against Corey and Crystal. It was fun. When we hit Austin, Derek and I crashed for afew hours because we were so tired. Then he took me to the UT campus where i stayed with my dear dear ILL Amanda for the night. Yes, one more night in the dorms but its ok...i was with some good friends. I talked with Amanda and her roommate (and a friend from my HS) Srimoyee. I also hung out with Sunny for alittle while and said hi to him. It was fun. Just seeing some old friends and saying hi to all of them. When i get back to Austin i'll hang out with my Tech friends and probally see afew more old friends from high school.

I have already hung out with my dear "sister" and her boyfriend. I also got to hang out with my friend Sara and she asked me to be a bride's maid in her wedding. Gah! She and Jonny are getting married in afew years?! wow...but i'm happy for her. They really are perfect for eachother. All in all, i've been lazy and unproductive and i love it. I did go run afew arends but that's all. Houston is surprisingly not that hot yet. I would have expected it to be hotter than it is but the weather is quite nice. *nods* I'm in a happy place.

Jess gave me the letter P i believe:

1. Pizza-- the pizza place near the campus left and it makes me sad...i liked one guy's *nods*

2. Peter-- my little brother. I love him to pieces and he is incredibly cute. I know i'm his sister but its true, he's cute *nods* I was talking to him last night and i was studying his features, he was adorable. No wonder all the girls are swooning after him.

3. Play-- this word has so many different connotations i'm just not going to go into it

4. Photos-- i love looking at old photos and wondering what was going through these people's heads at the time. It is actually quite amazing.

5. Phones-- i can't live without my cell. It is really my life.

6. principles-- something that i am supposedly supposed to have, but for the most part they have all been thrown out the window and crushed then rebuilt. *shrugs*

7. parties-- fun fun fun...thats all i have to say to that...and yes, i do drink.

8. PJ-- an interesting character really. He and i tend to talk art alot but, all in all he is a very interesting guy that i'm still learning to read.

9. pajamas-- comphy! that's all i have to say about that *nods*

10. publisher-- i will probally become a poblisher some day. I may intern with one my junior year, we'll see.


okies that's it i think!

-Reijn

Freedom? Not quite yet...

Ah, to my beautiful readers:

I am done with finals and i am moving into the appartments completely today and tomorrow. I will be turning off my computer today so there will be a lag in my posting until i get down to houston or i jack a friend's laptop. *huggles* and enjoy moving and your summer!

-Reijn

very very scary....*laughs*

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME
(name of first pet + street you lived on longest)

Anna Falling Brook

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME
(grandmother's/father's first name + favorite snack)

Janette Porkbun

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME
(first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant)

Residence Josies

4. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME
(first initial + first three letters of your last name)

Amas

5. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME
(favorite animal + name of high school)

Horse Clements

6. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME
(middle name + city you were born in)

Yukiko Houston <--the story of my life...*laughs*

7. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME
(name of sibling/parent [opposite sex] + cell phone company you use)

Peter Verison

8. YOUR STAR WARS NAME
(first 3 letters of your last name + last 3 letters of mother's Maiden name + first 3 letters of your last pet's name)

Masnchman

When I die...

After you die... Heaven After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

Happy Sunshine Rain

I guess i am over due for a real entry. Sorry guys, life tends to get a hold of you and doesn't let go.

Well, i've been busy with moving into appartments, signing leases, studying for finals, taking finals, and hanging out with friends. Busy life hu? I love it...with a passion. Life is never dull, in a good way, and i love it. I can't wait, my last final is on monday and then we are outta here on Wednesday to go down to Austin. Then, for the weekend we are going to hit my beautiful H-town...where i'm going to play in the church band one more time before my long summer hawl. *claps* i'm so excited. Oh, i love traveling and going home. We are all antsy i think. Corey, Derek, Crystal and I are going to hit Austin then we are all going to my home...exciting times...exciting! *nods* So much to do in the mean time though. I need to finish moving out of the dorms and into the appartments.

Which remindes me, i won't have a computer starting the 10th or so. I will disconnect my computer and move it about 1.5 miles away from campus and leave it in the living room of my appartment. Then i'm leaving for Austin, so my updates will either come from friend's computers or my home computer in beautiful SL. Gah, i am so happy and high on life right now...its exhilirating. *nods* okies! well, there ya' have it...a very incoherrent yet happy blog entry. Enjoy!

-Reijn

The Letter I (UPDATED)

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter (if you want to play).Then in your journal, write 10 words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.

1. Icecream-- i don't get enough of it. I miss my bluebell icecream so much! *laughs* and there is a whole thing of greentea icecream awaiting me back home in houston! *dances* good stuff, good stuff

2. Icesickles-- yeah spelling off but either way, beautiful things they are. I like them alot...they are fun to play with too. I remember playing with them in houston during an ice storm.

3. Ice-- hate it hate it hate it hate it....sorry faya

4. Ira-- awww...dear dear friend of mine. I use him for his snake! *laughs*

5. Indian Ink-- another thing i hate. Evil evil evil medium to try to do something with. I never got good at it...and i don't think i ever will.

6. Itch-- aren't those things annoying? *laughs*

7. I-- ha ha ha, you ALL were waiting for this one...yes yes yes...do i really need to explain it?! if i do you are so daft!

8. illiterate-- a sad thing really. I love my books and i love to read. Reading should be available to everybody. That's why i donated money to waldenbooks for literacy...i believe in books.

9. iPod-- *laughs* i'm addicted. I love my ipod mini. Its a very beautiful device that keeps me company. *melts* elton john!

10. instant messaging-- again, i'm addicted. I'm always on AIM or something, and when i'm not...people start complaining...its funny. *laughs* Ah, the irony...gah! another "I" word! IRONY! I can't believe i forgot it...*sighs* so is life. *huggles*

okeis...i've done C, L, and I...any more from my reading audience?! (i secretly want to do J)

11. I.L.L.-- Due to the fact that i got chewed out over not adding this, i am adding it now. *sighs* I.L.L. stands for Inverse Lesbian Lover. Now, i have become quite close to my dear friend amanda this past year, more so than when we were in high school. She has been there with me through the thick and the thin, i love that little bugger! Anywho, she would always say, "joey better watch out. If i was a lesbian he would have some major competition!" So i started calling her my Inverse Lesbian Lover. In other words, we are strait, yet i love her to pieces...and the feeling is mutual. *nods* So after being chewed out about NOT posting ILL here, i have decided to add it. So here it is my dear dear ILL!!!

(And for the record...I secretly want to do J AND A)


-Reijn

The Letter L

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter (if you want to play).Then in your journal, write 10 words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.

1. Lust-- "I'm in love with my lust, burning angel wings to dust..." I love that line, and it is so true to how i feel about life and myself now-a-days

2. Life-- I am also in love with life. I love living life as it comes to me and to its fullest. Life is such a wonderful thing

3. Lyrics-- i've become obsessed with them lately. Lyrics are beautiful things when you really think about it. Some of the things that Elton John says and Nightwish...yes...beautiful...they are pure literature in my opinion. *nods*

4. Lips-- lips actually say alot about a person when you think about it. A person's expressions, in my opinion, are read by two things the eye muscles and the lips

5. London-- i'm using this word as a representation of what i want to do TRAVEL! I would love to go to europe and explore so many different things and places

6. Loose-- ha ha ha, that is what my pants are right now, they are very very loose. So loose that they are falling off of me. Does that mean i'm loosing weight?! *laughs*

7. Love-- something that i tend to evade as much as possible now-a-days. I've been hurt way too much because of love so i am actually scared of it now. *sighs* I love my friends and family, but a significant other? that will take time and alot of healing.

8. Leaves-- oddly enough, i can't get enough of those little buggers. I love leaves. I have been blessed to get a dorm room that has a huge tree outside my window. When the wind blows, i can hear the constant rustling of the leaves. Its a rarity, where i live.

9. Lubbock-- "lubbock or leave it..." I leave it. I hate lubbock with a passion it is so...flat and borring and...nothingness. You want torchure? Leave somebody in lubbock and see if they don't go crazy, most people will.

10. Liberty-- its something that we all talk about over and over again but what does it really mean? I just took my poli sci exam and when i was studying for it by reading my text, i realized, do we truly have liberty? My answer is yes, but we do not have the freedom nor the humanic (is that a word?) ability to excrsize the full extent and potential that liberty has to offer. We are free to exercise a taste of it, but we will never truly be able to have liberty to its fullest. Its a catch 22 society that we, americans, live in. Quite ammusing actually.

there you have it...any more letters? I'm dishing them out too!

-Reijn

The Letter C

This is how it works: Comment on this entry and get a letter (if you want to play).Then in your journal, write 10 words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.

1. Coke--i am such a coka cola addict...caffene and all!

2. Calories-- the world is hooked on them and slowly and surely so am i. Loosing weight sucks but someone has to do it! *nods*

3. Cats-- they are so cute! I like them. If someone scratches the back of my head mindlessly...yeah, i wish i had a tail and ears to show experession!

4. Crystal-- i know too many crystals...i think the number is up to 4 now in my cell. But the two i want to talk about is my married friend and my college friend. Crystal Pruitt! gah! I blame her for getting me into the renaissance festival. She tainted me!!! And Crystal from tech. (i'm not saying her last name out of respect). She and i are very much alike on many many things. I do enjoy talking to her, and i can't wait to move into the appartments with her this summer! *nods*

5. Caring-- something that i have been guilty of several times. *sighs* It screws me over, over and over again but it is a part of me. *nods*

6. Coats-- i want one of those nice sleek coats that all the college students wear. I want one!!! I stole my moms over the winter break...i so want myown though!

7. Carols-- I hate them. I hate them with a passion. It goes along with my anti-Christmas feelings as well

8. Cast in Bronze-- this guy is an amazing mucisian! I am a huge fan of his. He goes to the Texas Renaissance Festival and i have every single one of his CDs. He plays the Carillion (another C word) and i have fallen in love with bells ever since!

9. Control-- once i feel like i have it over my life, it goes away...control?! what is that? I know not of what you speak of!

10. Canaries-- fasinating creatures really. They are so sensitive to life. Its almost like they are a form of life-force unto themselves. Its a beautiful thing really.

ok! I'm done...thank you Lisa! *nods*

-Reijn

Sleep-deprived Protest

well, i really don't know how to set this entry up...i'm so tired that i can't think nor can i get sentences to work together gramatically correctly. So excuse anything and everything said that doesn't make sense.

In many ways the day started like any other day. I went to the Starbucks in the SUB and waited in line for my Carmel Mocciatto not too sweet Grande, after i looked at my bank account, and to my horror, i was out of money completely. Thankfully I had just enough cash to get me my beloved caffene. I need to sell back books to get money, that's how broke i am. I am more broke than Joey. And that's saying alot, sorry dear. Either who, i was standing in line, and they already had my drink ready for me at the registar, waiting for me to check out. Now, i was half dead and half asleep so it was a total shock and pleasent surprise to have my coffee awaiting me. It was really nice of those girls at the Starbucks to have my order ready for me.

I went ahead and killed some time and walked to class, incredibly early. I was bored. If i sat down, I would fall asleep, and there was nothing left to do in my dorm so i just went to class and read the newspaper: The Daily Toreador. Trig class was borring and again, i fell asleep due to the monotomy and pure tiredness of me. *sighs* While leaving class, a girl struck up a conversation with me...and afew others. We started discussing the class and whether or not Trig was relevant to life. My responce was, it depends on what major you are in. She said she was pre-med. I laughed, i probally shouldn't have but i did...i'm an english and art major, i have the right to laugh at a math class. Either who, she mentioned that she didn't want to go to UT Med Houston because she didn't want to live in Houston. I said, "oh thanks." She appologized, realizing that i was from houston. She said she didn't like the crime rate. I told her that it really wasn't that bad, it has gone up because of the hurricane but that's it. She kinda blew me off and i walked on deciding to think nothing of it, but then i got to thinking. The Houston crime rate isn't any worse than Waco or Dallas. AND Baylor, UT, and UofH all have thier medical schools in Houston. I don't know, but that says something to me. I realized how people are influenced by ignorance and misinformation. That girl will probally stay in West Texas her entire life because she is too scared of the oustide world. That's sad...yet it is so true to many of the Tech students.

While i was pondering this, with my head down and my ears burried in elton john, i realized that in the free speach area there was some form of protest going on. It looked like to me a PITA-type protest...save the puppies and all. There was even a huge wooden cross leaning up against some landscaping. Now, whether that was thiers or not, i don't know. But i do know that was not there when i walked past it on my way to class. Seeing that protest and being completely discusted with it just re-affirmed my tired thoughts on how people are so persuaded by misinformation and ignorance. We are all fucking sheep. We follow and believe what the next person believes and feeds us, whether it being right or wrong. We don't care. It sounds good, it must be truth. Now, i could be going off on a tangent because i'm irritable and tired right now but who cares...this is MY blog. I don't know, just seeing the prostest...and listening to that girl's reasonings....it ticked me off. I didn't really see completely what these people were prostesting about, but i saw the pictures of puppies, and puppies in cages...its pretty self explainatory from that. Seriously, yes puppies are cute and wonderful but we can't save them all. And yes people do eat them, and yes people to kill them for fur. Animals were put on this earth to provide for humans, and then in return, for humans to provide for them. There is NOTHING wrong with fur or meat...in my opinion. Torchuring is another story. Either way...it just ticked me off, quite quickly and royally. I believe that people should not have the right to talk until they UNDERSTAND (not know) all the facts.

Just some pictures of what i live with on a daily basis:

West texas, in all of its horrible glory...no joke. It really is THIS flat. I have MORE pictures to prove it. Unfortunatly, i don't have pictures of the brown sky you get during a dust storm.







-Reijn

Dance Baby Dance

i pulled an all nighter. Its the second one i've had to pull this year. Ironically enough, they were both because of art projects. how does that not surprise me?! gah.

oh, and i have to explain the title to this entry. I was watching alot of movies to stay awake, and one of them was Labyrinth...David Bowie really ammused me...and i have that song stuck in my head now. David Bowie and sleep deprevation...that is fun...it really is. *laughs*

-Reijn

(PS: Lisa, i'll be in Houston in about two weeks or so)

No Weird Titles Today

*sighs* i'm tired. And finals are comming up starting Thursday...which, of course i have two right off the back. It really sucks, i have two finals on the first day of finals and one final on one of the last days of finals. On top of all of that i'm getting a lease signed and starting to move to appartments. Anywho, so if you haven't figured it out yet, i'm staying in lubbock for the summer, getting a job, taking classes and getting an appartment. Its actually quite exciting...the idea of working for a living, paying my own rent, going to school...being almost and completely independant. *nods* I like it. It makes me happy.

Well...i'm tired, i have an art project that i have to get done. *sighs* after its done it will be a happy time too...sorta. Its due tomorrow, and that is going to kick my butt. *nods* okies, time to get back to work. *huggles*

-Reijn